So I am going on my 6th and final year of college and I still feel like I havent obtained much knowledge. True I have learned the basics of electronics, advanced electronics, programming languages, and how to make a good drink. But I feel as though I havent learned anything within the past 3 years. In some classes I wonder if I know then the teacher. It seems like busy work with no end. I look at my physics homework and just see equations and theories that are only good for game shows you see on prime time TV. My roommates can hear me at anytime of the day screaming in anger as I yell about water droplets suspended in air. Unless I am a droplet I dont care how much electric force will be needed for me to hover. How about a human... why cant it be a human suspended in mid-air? With a demonstration! Then I would go to class instead of skipping so that I can do some senior design homework. Every class is like that. I dont learn anything in class. I sit there listening to the teacher go on and on and on and on... till i find myself lulled into a brain comma. Or he/she is going so fast you just start ignoring them because all is lost. The universities plan it this way. Then when you loose all hope, they can add another charge to the bill. Food (Over priced), ID (that they make you have), an on campus bookstore (over priced), and other expenses. "Oh you took over such and such hours... here have another bill. Even though we told you to take those classes or the class you needed wasnt available until the next semester so you took something else." Oh and parking! Thats the biggest load of it all. They even make the people that work for the campus pay for parking... Its a bunch of Shit! I am getting mad just thinking about it... May 2009 I am free and then the student loan bills come....

Its has been awhile since I have posted but I just had an interesting dream that made me want to write down my thoughts. For some reason the idea of sharing them with the internet seems like a good idea but we will see.

Last night I dreamed of an old crush. The situation was complicated for me so we never ended up being more than friends but it got me thinking about my current situations and why I have never had a traditional girlfriend. I am not a looser and in all truthfulness I, most of the time, do not care. I dont mind being alone but sometimes I think about what it would be like to have someone else. Also lately my dreams seem to be reminding me of the fact, so maybe I do need something more, subconciousley.  Its never a sex thing with me. I have never thought the words "I need to hit that" or the equivelent, in my life. Dont get me wrong I am not gay at all, even though apparently living in an all girl environment is supposed to cause this, which it didnt in my case. I just never get into a girl until I know her. I havent quite figured out what I am looking for but I am starting to notice trends in the girls I choose. The first aspect that seems to be they are independent. Every woman I have have dated/wanted was there own person. They didnt need anyone else to hold them up. I admire that. I see that in most of my friends also. She wants to help people, two women specificly come to mind with this one. Race doesnt seem to be a factor. (You should have seen my step dad and moms face when I told them I went out with a black girl. lol) The final thing that is important is intelligence. As I think about it these are the same qualities I find in my friends. That makes sense since someone that you want to spend the rest of your life with should be your friend first.

I dont care about meeting people. I am an introvert! I can sit in my room all day and entertain myself or go out by myself and be perfectly happy. I dont need other people besides my closest friends. Very few times do I ever call anyone to hang out. I just never think about it. I just go do it. Unless its a special event like hiking (because then you are just walking aimlessly alone and that is boring or possibly creepy). Being an introvert is not a shy thing; Its more of a dont care thing. If you dont know what introvertisem is look it up. Apartently 1/3 of the population are introverts and its always good to know about other people :) . According to several Myers Briggs personality tests I have taken (online so its prolly all BS) I am the following (Ive taken the test 4 times and its a 50-50 chance at getting each so I am guessing I am in the middle):

INFJ

Quietly forceful, original, and sensitive. Tend to stick to things until they are done. Extremely intuitive about people, and concerned for their feelings. Well-developed value systems which they strictly adhere to. Well-respected for their perserverence in doing the right thing. Likely to be individualistic, rather than leading or following.

INFP

Quiet, reflective, and idealistic. Interested in serving humanity. Well-developed value system, which they strive to live in accordance with. Extremely loyal. Adaptable and laid-back unless a strongly-held value is threatened. Usually talented writers. Mentally quick, and able to see possibilities. Interested in understanding and helping people.

Personally I think I lean more toward the INFP side. At first I was undecided about posting this. I dont usually share my feelings. Up until now I have had many pesonal posts but I delete them from the blog before anyone can read them. This one I will keep up. I really wrote this so that my friends could understand me more and so I could sort through some thoughts. Also its better then a stupid chain letter ;)

For a while now I have been nonexistent on this site. There is a reason for that... Ive been dead! I just woke up and I am a zombie. Sorry to break it to ya. Just cap me in the head or lay there and let me eat your brains. I am lazy so dont fight it just give in! I promise to update about my adventures soon.

1. Yoshimi Battles The Pink Robots - The Flaming Lips

What do you want to be famous for?
Submitted by bluemoon07.

I dont want to be famous at all! I just want to create something that would help everyone in life. I try to stay away from the lime light as much as possible. The more famous you ae the more people are in your business an I like being secretive. :)

Hey! Its been awhile since I updated... Thats all I got! :)

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What are 10 things you've done that other people probably haven't? 
Submitted by Janette.   

1. Road Trip Across the US (California to North Carolina)

2. Salt River Tubing (Arizona)

3. Stayed up all night to help my mom bake in a bakery

4. Explored caves

5. Camped out for a Wii

6. Played Rock Band with roommates for 6 to 7 hours straight

7. Part of a band

8. Programmed a Virus

9. Rode on the back of a Harley.

10. Been over 120MPH in a Lowered S-10 Blazer. (This is where the Speedometer stops)

I saw this picture on /B/ and it made me laugh. Its so true!

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Which breed of dog is your favorite? Post a picture of it. 
Submitted by Melissa.

I Have always wanted an English Bulldog. I dont know why, I dont even know anyone that has one. But just look at it! Its out for blood! Its ready to take down anyone or anything! KILL!!

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So for the longest time I just thought I was weird and couldn't figure out why I acted so strange compared to everyone else. I just figured something was wrong with me. Until I stated researching the different parts of my personality test. Ive taken the Myers Briggs personality test multiple times and either come up being INFP or INFJ. So I am guessing I am in the middle. But the most interesting part was the "I" part. This explained a lot. The "I" stands for Introvert and I never really thought anything about it other then maybe it meant I was shy or Internally focused. It turns out it explains why I act the way I do. Introverts, including myself, are mostly quiet. As wikipedia puts it, Introverts tend to be quiet, low-key, deliberate, and relatively non-engaged in social situations. This one sentence describes me perfectly. The only time I am ever relax is with a few close friends or by myself. Even if I am in a room with more then two of my friends I stay quiet and listen to what they have to say. It also said I "fade" when many people are around me. If I am with a group of people I start to space out and sorta feel tired. This happen to me today when I was eating at Hops with Tara's family and last night when I went to a party with some friends. In the past ive tried to change these tendencies by changing the way I act, but have never succeeded. This could be because its more of a physical condition with the brain rather then a programmed response. Studies have shown the Introverts use more their frontal lobes more then extroverts as well as their anterior or frontal thalamus. These areas are responsible for planning and problem solving. This explains another reason why I like engineering. So if I am quiet just keep talking because I love to listen! :)